Do i need to move on? Because it’ll never happen. I’m happy being alone. I can be alone or with her. The only two options. Can’t go make a fool of myself because me and her boyfriends are kinda friends. I’m not trying to mess up any relationship of theirs so i hold back living my life acting like i dont care..but i do. I think i would go crazy if something happened to jennifer. Jennifer g foo will always forever make me stop and want things to be back to a new way of a good relationship. Gotta keep my head up hoping for one micro bit of chance i still have left in her heart. But thats all gone!!! Because i fudged up soooooo much i dont get to even earn it. I can “say all the right things” but i truely have to mean it. A true man will admitt and fix his problem. No pride included except pride in his one true love.

Ever feel like the biggest mistake was losing out on love? I do. I messed up so bad that it lives with me everyday every second i see her pass by and smile. But everytime i have to make it seem like it doesn’t phase me. She’s moved on and happy now. Shes not looking back on what used to be. She’s looking forward and learning from me messing up. Now she has sheild around her personality and is shutting me out for good. Something i can’t do. I don’t care whether she can read this or not, but in the end its over. They say if you really love someone you would fight for them until the end, but the time for fighting is over when you’re going nowhere. I love her but I’ll see what time has in store for me. If we ever get back together then nothing in the world is separating us no distance, no problem, or any fight.